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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
11:45 am
Ok I've decided I've been doing a crappy job of keeping this place up. Soooo is anyone interested in being Co-Mod ? it doesn't matter how long you've been a member. just anyone ineterested in helping out?

Current Mood: bored
Thursday, July 29th, 2004
11:06 pm
yeah i wrote this poem along time ago..... i just found it....its sad like the rest....here it is

By Seth Aaron Miller

left here to rot
left here to die
sent into exile
not expecting much
just searching for a life
searching for my soul
left out of the light
lying in the darkness
hellish dreams
its a never ending fall into a pit of fire
sitting in the shadows weeping
feeling my skin creeping
with no sleep
i feel nothing
just coldness on my neck
no stopping myself now
just contuing to fall
i wait for you to come
with my eyes sown closed
and my mouth full of blood
the last bit of pain shoots out of my black heart
or at least what is left of it
it smothers all hope inside of me
making it seem like my mind is breaking
suddenly i cant breath
i still find myself longing for you
shattered dreams
falling faster now
here in exile....
all alone i now die

Current Mood: blank
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
4:41 pm
Definitly not my best poem, just my most recently written (that being like 5 minz ago)doesn't rhyme and its more just a rant kind of...o well enjoy:)

When I look at my reflection
I see what the world forces me to see
The lonely hint
of what I'll never be
I rub away at the self doubt
I smile
and hope no one else can tell how unhappy i am
until I myself believe the lie I've told myself
holding back tears with laughter
keeping in self hate with a smile
how long can I lie?
forge truths to be content?
Insignifigent words gnawing at me
deaf to words of confidence
only hearing voices that weigh me down
killing me slowly
When will the world be able to hurt me no longer?
Until then I will remain alone, inside myself
Smiling so the world doesn't see me
sobbing, slowly, drowning out the world
drowning out myself
washing out my reflection

tada.like I said not that good but o well...TTYL everyone :) keep posting and promoting!

Current Mood: gloomy
Monday, July 26th, 2004
6:01 pm
it is my first time posting here on emotions_inside.
my poem is called darkness. i wrote it right before i cut myself. tell me what you think of it if you wish.....i really want to get an icon picture does anyone know of a good place.. anway here is the poem.


in the darkness i sit
feeling as if i am falling into a pit
just watching myself fall
while wondering the meaning of this all
sitting there alone thinking
with many thoughts of poison drinking
dreaming of my death
and then suddenly finding myself out of breath
because i am watching my slit wrist
still wondering if i will still exist
hoping for the worst to come
while feeling very very numb
i am now giving up my will to live
will you please forgive?
for if there is one thing i have learned
while i was getting burned
there is no greater sorrow
than going on and living to see tommorrow

Current Mood: artistic
2:11 pm
changed name
hey guys i've changed my name from brytne69 to forgotenxdreams so talk to me t here or here i guess buh bye

\m/ Brittany \m/

Current Mood: creative
Thursday, July 22nd, 2004
10:06 pm
Alone -{ or something like it}-
Alone in the darkness by myself, no one knows how i feel.
So hard now, to put on my fake smile.
i crack under pressure, just like old porcline tile.
go away, now leave me be.
I hate you, and u hate me

its not as good as the first but hey. BE HONEST AND TELL ME WUT YA THINK!
\m/ rock on \m/ Brittany

Current Mood: blah
Monday, July 19th, 2004
7:53 pm
through anothers eyes
you cant see thru anothers eyes
to know wut they think and feel
to know the pain and suffer

to know the angst and aginy
or know emotions not shown

dont judge or look down
becuz to other people you are looking thru anothers eyes

sry if its not that great it was kinda the spir of the moment poem. first time poster type thing. comment and let my know wut u think
\m/ rock on \m/


Current Mood: good
4:13 pm
MOD Post
OK PPL........I'm making a banne.r lets promote this placE! I'll admit i've been VERY lazy witht his comunity, but I want to get it up and running. iwill have a promo banner by tomaro at the latest...PLZ promote Promote promote Thanx :D!!! And PLZ post! I'd love to see some poetry :D (and thanx to sammi for posting some of her work!)

Current Mood: bored
Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
1:23 pm
Whisper Goodbye
I said hello-
you turned away.
I had only hoped that it would pass,
that this fight wouldn't last too long.
we'd be friends again after a few hateful words.

and so we were, and we put it behind us.
only to look back and remember those awful days.
days full of hatred,
full of anger,
full of pain.

but now, in some attempt to be greater than I,
you look back onto what is long forgotten in my mind.
you dig deep into my thoughts, only to find those buried under new trusts.
you find some of my feelings from long ago,
feelings full of hatred,
full of anger,
full of pain.

and you release your awful wrath.
it swoops down on me, covering me in black smoke, that I can't seem to get out of.
I can't find my way around it,
only to think and dwell on what is here.
sooner or later, I will find a path of hope, and I will follow that path, only to be
questioned at the end of it.

I said hello-
you turned away.
I whispered goodbye, only to hear the soft sounds of you angry heart beating.

Friday, June 18th, 2004
1:35 pm
What's the point in living?
if I just feel pain
what's the point in thinking?
if I'm going insane.

What's the point in happiness?
if I cannot feel it
what's the point in love?
if that flame cannot be lit.

What's the point in making friends?
they'll hate me n e way
what's the point in boyfriends?
when it'll only last a day.

What's the point in life?
when were just destined to die
what's the point in truth?
when we all just live a lie.


Current Mood: energetic
Friday, June 11th, 2004
7:07 pm
a slam winning poem...
"The Little One"

A small boy of four
wit dark hair and dark eyes
Throughout the day he wants more
During the night he cries
Stuttering for attention
with a voice hoarse from screams
Starving for affection
Nightmares and darkness replace dreams
He's all alone, Mother is gone
Brother is distracted
Sister is locked away
so he sits with his toys
Left behind the older boys
The tears keep falling
until he can't breathe
Self-centered girl keeps calling
"What the h--- do you need?"
He reacts with violence
the only way he knows
Mother wants silence
tired of the tantrums he throws
Help him, save him, hold him close
[***I scream, I cry, I hug, try do dry the tears
Guilty that I'm the cause of fears
why do we yell at him?
all he needs is a friend
Where is his faith?
if we're all hopeless***]
Bound for places unknown
bound to be put underground
His youth is shattered before it began
From tortured boy to misplaced man
One kiss, one chance to change him
one night, one dream to spare him
Free him from our grasp
Don't make him finish Last
Just one small boy at the age of four
One innocent soul lying cold on the floor

the part between the [***-***] i didnt' read for the poetry slam to save time and because i don't like it as much...

Current Mood: proud
Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
8:30 pm
::first post::


Sitting Still.

Standing by.

Watching the Crowd.

Just Pass Me by.

I’m Always Alone.

In a Room Full of People.

I Just Want to Feel.

The Happiness That Lingers.

I’m the Girl in the Corner.

That Nobody See’s.


And I Hope That Will Change.


It is not that good. But hell it is poetry and it is true.


Current Mood: crushed
3:02 pm
Hey what is up everyone.. just wanted to say Hi and all.. and i like the last poem that was posted, both of them were really good!! I am not really a poet.. but i have a few friends who are into it.. maybe i will write some stuff... but let me tell you that it might not be that good.. anywayz.. Hey Everyone!!

Current Mood: blah
Sunday, June 6th, 2004
8:04 pm
HI...HAHA... whitney, you've read this poem already, but i'm going to post 2 just to make you happy...

"Are you Happy Now?"
I can't prove to you
all the things that I can do
You've stolen my soul away from me
and flaunted my faults for all to see
Stop they games, return my heart
before you tear my world apart

here's one you haven't read...

"Fire Works"
I wish I could show you the stars
Let you grasp their glory
I want to bring you their fire
So you can dance amidst the eternal flmae
They can make the sky shine now
With brilliant reds and blues
The glowing greens and burning oranges
light the sky above the bay.
The so-called works of fire let humanity shine
it lets us grasp the universal majick
between the stars and planets
If they can bring the majicki closer
and we can hold it in our hands
If the heavens shower in a rainbow night
while smiling children sit on the grass
If air simple lives can touch the firelight
then maybe I can bring you the stars

Current Mood: bored
1:46 am
Hey, I'm the MOD of this community. I'll usually be on this sn, for updating, questions, whatever....so if u have anything u'd like to ask/say, comment on my lj. If u'd liek to kno morea bout me, check out my info page, enjoy to community!!!
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